Resentments

Question : why don't you ever go back to Seremban? Why are you so reluctant?

Answer : why would i want to go back to a place that doesn't bring me any happiness?

There's only a woman i grew up with who were never happy with what i do despite me doing the best i can to keep her satisfied. I work this work that i absolutely loathe, i do as i was told and yet, i'm always the devil in her eyes. I wear the wrong clothes, i never cared enough, i am selfish, i date the wrong kind of men... that's all i ever hear her say.

And then there's that man, the sole cause of all my broken dreams. I wish i could say that money couldn't buy love, but along with the money he lost, he also lost my love for him and any sort of respect a child should have for her father. He made promises that he never kept. And i continued to hold on to those promises, with this broken heart of mine. And the man never learned, he only continued to trod on what little fragments of feelings i still had.. shattering it more and more. He's the reason i refuse to date Malay men. He's going to be the reason i will never marry. For i can't trust men and their promises after what i've seen from him.

So tell me, why in the world would i want to go back there? Where home doesn't feel like home at all..