chin up.

time for a bit of an update. :) doubt that anybody reads this, much less anyone would care. haha.

finally had the 'closure' talk with the toxic man. albeit a result of an unpleasant circumstance (i did all sorts of shits which ended with him calling me up and screamed the shit outta himself over the phone and i screamed the shit outta myself over the phone right back) we ended up just talking about how we have hurt each other over the years. i doubt that he would change himself, he probably wouldn't even believe a word i told him. but what's important to me, is that i've let it all out. i have finally had the chance to tell him all the things i've held on to for so long. my hurt. it's very freeing. like finally laying it to rest. i don't have any feelings anymore for the man, and i am no longer harboring hatred for him. he's..... nothing, now. :)

thank God for that. :)

and i met a new guy. no, it's not the time for smiles and jump for joy yet. we hit it off really well in the beginning, met in a club, thought he was all hot with his beefed up body and that dazzling smile and Paco Rabanne perfume got me all hypnotized. 3 days of knowing the new guy felt like more the toxic guy did from over a year. but alas, what had burned brightly and so quickly also died as quickly as it started. within a month things already went down south. noticing his childish behavior, his penchant to be pampered and always wanting things his way, and his impatience. plus, our music taste is so far apart you can fit a Grand Canyon in it. so finally he just stopped interacting. no messages, no calls, nothing. *shrugs* ah well. no hard feelings for this lady. if i have learnt anything from the past relationship, is to just let go. no use stringing memories and emotions along. we don't fit, no use in forcing that to change.

looking forward to more romance and a better me. :)