lovedrunk.

you said "i love you."

i said "i love you too."

you said "i wanna keep you forever."

you even contemplated religion.

and i said i'm yours.

but we were fucking drunk. nothing counts when it's said in intoxication.

i'm regretting my words.

you can't remember any of yours. and it's better that way.

don't fall for me. i'm so fucking screwed, i'll only end up hurting you. and you're so screwed, you'll only end up hurting me.

takes patience to deal with patients.

*me walking past a chinese uncle during work*
Uncle : (muttering something in chinese)
me : (stared at him for a bit, assumed he's muttering something to himself, walks away)

half an hour later

*me walking past the uncle again*
Uncle : (muttering something in chinese, in a louder voice)
Me : (stared back, make a puzzled face, and walked away)

an hour later

*me attending to a patient across his bed*
Uncle : "Misi ah.... (saying something in chinese)
Me : *annoyed, especially since i had been having a busy night*
"APA KE BENDA NYA UNCLE OIIIII. I'm Malay, not Chinese!!!!!! Saya Melayu lahhhhhhhhhhhhh. x paham bahasa cina!!!"
Uncle : oh, bukan cina ah.. (mumbles)
Me : (exasperated, walked away)


y'see, if it's a one time thing, i'd say i'm overreacting to this uncle. but for one, i've been attending to him for the past 2 weeks and he did the same shit every single day. MOTHERFUCKINGFUCK you're senile, old man.

and please, if you ever get admitted to a fucking govt hospital, don't bother calling up for help unless your life depends on it. if one more, i say, one fucking more patient calls me up with that crazy emergency voice only to make me fix their pillow, i'm going to commit murder.

Second Guessing

"once you go black, you'll never go back."

some days i felt like i'm so fucked up.

i'm  so screwed, on so many levels.

but is repentance even part of my options?

chick lits.

50 Shades of Grey? more like 50 Shades of Horny.

not that i'm complaining..

Padwans.

"i don't want to be just another one of your padwans,"

i still wince when reminded of those words he said to me. that hurts. for you to think that i'm the one going around acting like a slut. what don't you get? i don't want any other, i want you.

you told me not to fall for you, and yet, you're playing all this emo shit on me. you know what? for that i'll break my promise just to spite you. i'll fall.

irony

they say, if you're sick, you have to go see a doctor.

but, what if you got sick because you went to see a doctor?

hmmmmmm...

new boy on the block.

out with the old, in with the new, they say.

haha, me and my scandalous life.