my sick mind.

i'm the kind of person who wears her heart on her sleeve. i'm very open with my thoughts and emotions, and i like to tell people of things that excites me, or worries me. i would just tell basically anyone that was there, the moment the thought hits me, or the emotion engulfs me.

but the thing is, most of the time i tell people things is not because i want their view, or their advice, and i definitely don't want their judgement of me. because let's face it, things that goes through my mind can be quite out there. i just tell em mostly just to get it off my chest. if my thoughts are wrong and you tell me that it is, i will just make it more wrong.

it's like i just fucking love to torture myself -- putting my thoughts out there, and letting people judge me, then get all mad because people judged me.. :/

Religion

to Mr tall, dark, brooding and handsome.

dear you,

this could just be a passing infatuation, and this feels so wrong that nothing could make it right.

but i want to fuck your fucking brains out.

so please stop being so fucking sexy and smart, and charming. and please stop having this amazing fucking chemistry with me. and stop being sexy. stop it i say.

you're driving me fucking mad.

with love,
me.

Forgive me, for i have sinned.

sigh.

how did this got to what it is? stooped wayy too low.

fuck.

i'll just say this flat out. sexting.

GOD!

i feel despicable. i mean, i did a LOT of despicable things, but this, is just too much for me.

sure, he's a damn sexy guy. and suuuuuuuureeee, i'm a fucking hormonal chick. but..

i need to breathe.

i work with this dude. it's so fucking wrong on so many levels.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i need GOD right now.

Broke.

Having the weekends off sucks big time, especially when you're fucking broke. like seriously. all i have in my pockets is lint. oh payday, please arrive soon.

too much "emergency spending" this month. April, be kind to me.

kids.

i'll be honest. i'm not the biggest kid-loving chick out there. though let me be clear, i still do think of having a couple of my own one day (i hope that will be a distant future..) just to know what kind of parent i would make, but still, sometimes i see annoying, spoilt kids, this goes through my brain.

i'm a firm believer of tough love and discipline on kids, it'll do them a world of good when they don't grow up to be stupid douchebags, y'know.

revenge.